I always tried to achieve this status, the perfect someone with all the things that make you perfect, I didn’t go to the extreme don’t worry:). And I thought hard about it, what does it mean to be perfect?
In the end, there was a simple answer to my question, to be perfect you need to be loved, because when the other person is in love with you, then you are perfect for her/him. Our mothers and fathers see as perfect (that’s the case most of the times), they love us with their whole hard no matter what stupid things we do, come to think of I need to write a few apology letters to them and a few to my little brother.
There are many different kinds of love but all of them make you into a perfect person. When I am in love no matter how angry I get she calms me down, she is the reason that I smile and she is just perfect in every meaning of that word. Our little imperfections are what makes us perfect, which makes me equal me and not someone pretending to be me. I thought for a while when I was younger (well I know I am 21 and still young but I was younger than) I was thinking “What if I was emotionless? What would happen if I’d try that?” so I did.
It went smooth until I found a girl I like, well I can’t say I enjoyed or hated it because I was in the “don’t care about anything zone”. It hurt a few people because I changed that way and I feel a bit bad about it now that I think about it. I was the kind of smile to many guys and I changed into a forever indifferent guy. I was not me and that’s why I think being perfect and being seen as perfect by others is the same as being loved by others. If you are loved you’ll always be perfect for someone, that’s why you need to start loving yourself.
Love yourself , don’t listen to people who say you are not good because you are different , listen to those who love you, those who say that you are perfect the way you are and take their words and use them as motivation, as something to push you forward in improving yourself into becoming a better you, a you that will be kind and gentle to everyone, someone that loves to smile and loves to make others smile.
That’s the kind of person I want to be, I want to make people around me smile, even if I feel like being in the depths of hell I still want the people around me to smile because nothing is better than seeing people around you smile and enjoy the time spent together.